Today 2 Years ago over 1100 or so Friends, Family from near and so far and our community came to say goodbye to you.
I NEVER thought I would see the day I would have to stand in pure agony next to your body drained of every ounce of life it once had. I didn't want to share those last hours, minutes, seconds with anyone, but you touched so many people that they deserved to visit you one last time even if it were in your silence. I would of sat on that floor rocking and holding you as tight as I could Never wanting to let anything or anyone pry you away from me forever. I couldn't eat, drink without feeling like I would throw up my entire insides.
I NEVER left your side and for over 3 hrs of winding lines or the overcrowded nesx room I never saw. I greeted every person personally to let them know how much I appreciated their support for our family and having their presence, Warning and pleading with every young person never to do this to their parents. I TRIED to share the already enless grief that it causes. Over an hour of Heartfelt speeches from those who choose to share their stories of the life with you in it.
Except for every line in your face, every eyelash or piece of hair, the still stubble of your beard It is all still so very blurry as I unknowingly at the time was taking one of the very things that contributed to you laying there right by my side. It was a image that will forever be engraved in my mind as your dad had to make me leave holding me up from full collapse, looking back at you with no more energy left in me knowing that would be the very last time I could see your face. That would be the LAST time you were tangible to me. It would be the LAST time I COULD CUP YOUR FACE, KISS YOUR FOREHEAD, CHEEKS, STROKE YOUR HAIR, BRUSH YOUR HAIR BACK & WHISPER IN YOUR EAR HOW MUCH I WILL MISS AND FOREVER LOVE YOU.
