Well...… All Raffles put together and wrapped, All titles, labels and numbers applied, Hopefully I have all Donators listed on our appreciation board and info logged in my records.
I think we now have teams set, all my wonderful volunteers are confirmed. Cars are packed and soon to have tables picked up.
I STRESS FROM THE 1ST DAY OF PLANNING, I WORK SO VERY HARD TO TRY TO MAKE THIS DAY AS GREAT AS IT CAN BE. i DONT ASK FOR MUCH HELP BECAUSE THIS IS THE ONLY THING I CAN DO FOR YOU. I CAN'T HOLD YOU, KISS YOUR CHEEKS FEEL THAT HUG AND CAN'T SAVE YOU SO THIS IS WHAT I HAVE.
MANY SLEEPLESS NIGHTS, RACING THOUGHTS, WORRY, ANXIETY AND FALLING ASLEEP WITH TEARS IN MY EYES. YOUR DAD SUPPORTING ME EVERY SINGLE STEP OF THE WAY. CHEERING ME ON, HOLDING ME UP AND LOVING ME ENDLESSLY TELLING ME THAT IT WILL ALL TURN OUT FINE.
TODAY FINALIZING EVERYTHING IT FEELS LIKE SOMEONE SUCKER PUNCHED ME OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN AND AGAIN. YOUR DAD HOLDING ME AS TIGHT AS HE CAN AS MANY HARD SOBBING TEARS HAVE FALLEN. As I sit here writing this I still can't believe tomorrow even exists..
ALL THIS TREVOR, ANOTHER YEAR OF PREPARATION FOR A DAY WE SHOULD OF NEVER HAVE HAD TO HAVE FOR YOU..
I HOPE YOU CAN SEE TOMORROW HOW MUCH YOU ARE LOVED BY OTHERS STILL. I HOPE STORIES CAN BE SHARED, SMILES FROM THINKING ABOUT YOUR ANTICS, REMEMBERING YOUR BIG BROWN EYES AND THAT LAUGH AND SARCASM, YOUR 1 AND ONLY PERSONALITY.
I, YOUR DAD AND YOUR BABY BROTHER LOVE AND MISS YOU BEYOND ANY WORDS.
