Days that the heaviness of your heart feels like it will burst out of your soles, your lungs feel like they are collapsing with every exhale. The pressure in your head makes your whole head and face hurt. Your mind is foggier than a cloudy/dreary day. There is no creativity. The sadness is unforgiving and you just want to crawl under whatever you can and disappear from the world that your life has become. The guilt makes your stomach so sick you aren't sure if you should throw up or eat your way thru the day to try and put that nauseous feeling at bay. On top of the rest of my mental health it all feels so useless. You work and fight so extremely hard ,so extremely hard for the better days and the bad days just completely defeat you.
Just a mom who misses one of her children so hard that getting hit by a truck would be
painless.
Missing you Trev my grief so very vast and my love indescribable
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