So many days have gone by since I last filled you in on my thoughts, feelings, babbling, blubbering, feeling of total lost, broken, sadness, A life that sucks without you here.
I think about you day after day, repeat over and over and over each minute and second that passes I can't help but to talk to myself, talk to you and again NO FING ANSWER. I JUST WANT THAT ANSWER, A ANSWER, SOME KIND OF ANSWER, JUST TO HEAR YOUR VOICE AGAIN
I WOULD GIVE AND DO ANYTHING TREVOR ANYTHING!!!!!!! I WOULD GIVE MY LIFE TO HAVE THAT IF IT WERE ONY FOR A SECOND JUST ONE WORD I WOULD GIVE IT ALL.
Some days you know, I know you are gone, but I think these thoughts. Are they happy? They could be in another time, a real time.( it's really pretending) a story of sorts, not living in this moment in this world, living in some happy world a world that is in my mind. I try to make myself believe you will be home in t- minutes, come to me, call me, text me. I really do know you aren't coming home. Then as I try to live in my make believe story, reality starts to mix in and the pretend starts to erase and the now comes into focus. Today I was in your room, Dad was at work and Ky was out of town. I started on my feet and before I knew it I was on my knees screaming at you, crying and screaming WHY.oh gosh hell be home sometime soon NO, NO HE WON'T DAWWWWWN GET A GRIP, U HAVE TO BELIEVE WHAT U ALREADY KNOW
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